Two Years

On March 11th it had been two years with out our Cody. Its hard to even explain my feelings, but I'll do my best. How can the day we lost Cody seem like forever ago, but yet just yesterday at the same time?? It seems like its been a century since I've seen his cute face, given him a hug, heard his laugh, pulled on his long beard or received a giant surprise kp from him. At the same time the wounds are still fresh. Every single moment about that day is forever engraved in my memory. I remember every detail and emotion we felt like it was just yesterday. It still hurts and I know now it will continue to hurt the rest for our lives. We will always miss him no matter what! When we are together as a family we will always still feel his absense. He is always missing. The service and Christ like life he led will always push me to be a better person. I admire him so much. I want nothing more than to be less judgemental, more kind, and reach out to others who may be suffering just like he was. He will always be one of my heros'. Now that he is now gone I feel more of a desire than ever to be the best I can be. I hope I can be a more compassionate person, and learn to truly love everyone, just like Cody did. I miss you every day big brother! Thank you for being such a good example in your short life. I love you SO much!