3-11-09 ❤

The hardest day of the year, every single year! Missing my sweet brother Cody today so badly it hurts. I have such mixed emotions on this day. I cry and cry but also experience so much joy for the Gospel & the knowledge we have the families can be together forever! How lucky we are to know we have a loving & merciful Father in Heaven who takes EVERYTHING into consideration and is the only one who truly knew Cody's heart, thoughts, struggles & pains. Even though I know he is in a much better place I still have selfish thoughts wishing he were here to experience life with us! I have no doubt he's up in heaven loving our future children until they are sent here to earth! The veil is so thin, I know he looks over us and experiences our joys and heartache as we go through this mortal life. I love you Cody, I hope & pray every day to be more like you. I never knew anyone less judgmental and more kind & loving than you! Thanks for being my brother and showing me how to be a better person! I will be forever grateful to call you my big brother! xoxo I Love You!