Dear Co Co:

Its been way too long since I've written you. Please don't think a day goes by that I don't think about you and miss you, I always will. I'm sorry I let so much time go by with out writing about you. You are in my thoughts constantly. I have to say life has been better for me lately. Its not to say I miss you less I have just gotten better at remembering you would want me to be happy! I miss everything about you! I can't wait until we can be reunited again. Families are forever, and I promise you I will do my part so I can live with you and our family for eternity! I'm glad Papa is there to keep you company, has he stopped talking yet?? I highly doubt it! ha well sweet brother I love you and miss you!! xoxo please watch over us, and be there for Maddens baptism this summer! He has struggled knowing you wont be there in person but we know you'll be there in spirit!
I LOVE YOU
may

another amazing give away :)

I found this amazing giveaway (thanks to my cousin Julie) and I fell in love with this cool clothing store, Autumn Dame! Everything is SO unique, and so me! I want to win this cardi so bad! Everything is simply darling! Check it out!

Letting go doesn't mean
giving up, but rather
accepting that there are
things that cannot be.




(thank you to my cousin for letting me steal this x0x0)

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happy Tuesday!

this = a headache

wedding planning= a headache. its not even for my own wedding and i'm getting headaches and stressing. i think ill visit the doc before i even think of getting married so my planning goes stress free. however, minus all the stress i do love my sister and i enjoy helping her plan away. mind you we just barely started planning... ohhh TODAY! ha


p.s. this picture is deceiving. weddings are hard work. on the more pleasant side they are fun and fabulous, but they do not come with out stress.

happy mother's day...

to my wonderful, amazing, selfless, incredible, crafty, strong, kind, loving, funny, honest and sweet mom! i love you! the list could go on and on. I'd be truly lost with out you in my life. You are the best mom any daughter could ever ask for. I hope one day I can be half the mom you are! You are my best friend in the whole wide world! xoxo

and happy mothers day to my incredible sister Chiara! She is a complete mold of my mom. She can do anything and everything. She has been my second mom my whole life, and is such an amazing mom to her kids... hence the reason I try to convince her she needs to have some more :) i love you war!

a sweet goodbye...

Last night my sweet Papa Jensen passed away... He's in heaven, peaceful, happy, and I'm sure talking everyone's ears off. He has had a stroke for over 17 years now and he can finally talk. Its mixed emotions we are so happy for him but so sad as well. I'll miss my sweet papa. He is the most generous, sweet, caring, hilarious and kind person I have ever met. I wish everyone could know him, I'm positive everyone would love him! He and my grandma share a love that I hope and pray someday I will find. Rest in peace papa. Give my brother Cody the biggest hug and kiss from me! How grateful I am more and more every day for the knowledge I have that families can be together forever... Until we see you again. We love you and will miss you every day! xoxo
here are a few sweet pictures I captured in his last days on this earth.

An apple a day doesn't keep the doctors away.

Well today was a busy day filled with two visits to the doctors. The first visit was simple and quick. The longest part was the 6 pages I had to fill out( ok maybe it was only 3 but still... seemed like 6), However the outcome of the first visit was lame. The Doc took one look in my mouth at my tonsils and said within five seconds... "you need a tonsillectomy." Just GREAT. He then proceeded to tell me if you are over 12 its a very painful recovery and I would need to be in bed for 10 days. The ten days in bed on strong meds sounded very appetizing to me, but the word painful was lets just say painful to hear. So the tonsillectomy is set to happen within a few weeks. He also informed me that I cannot take any headache medicine from now until the surgery. I was not happy and i'm pretty sure I might be breaking his rules:) Well the second visit of the day was an eye exam. This appt took a lot longer and the outcome was... nothing. ha maybe i'm going crazy but I swear my eyes are bad. Well all in all it was good to just get them checked considering I haven't for 3 years. After a long exam they sent me out with those huge amazingly good looking glasses on. ha i'm sure I got laughed at my numerous people while shopping inside stores... its cool these days to wear sun glasses indoor. just look around. ha well all in all today was an ok day. I'm just scared out of my mind for the tonsillectomy. lets just pray it all goes smoothly!
and tada here are my sweet shades... Oh and did I mention my older sister has to get her's out as well so we are getting them done the same day. hahaha my poor mother has to take care of both of us for ten days. mind you we will be on serious meds. she might need to borrow someones video camera pronto.


oh and heres just a picture of me and my cute niece I did her hair in pigtails when I was babysitting her.

Tagged

Not so sure i like this being tagged thing... here goes:)

A - Attached or Single: Single(probably will be forever according to my family ha)
B - Best Friend: have three Sarah, Kort and Kenz
C - Cake or Pie: hmmm i'll take them both. Confetti cake, and Banana cream pie.
D - Day of choice: Monday and Fridays
E - Essential Item: Vaseline for my lips & lotion.
F - Favorite Color: Purple... no question.
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Definitely gummy worms... sugar coated ones are best:)
H- Hometown: Grew up in Oregon but Bountiful will always be considered my hometown. I want to live in Bountiful for forever!
I - Indulgence(s): Dr.pepper, White Jumbos with out nuts(from parsons), and shoes!
J - January or July: No competition. July for sure. I hate the winter time.
K - Kids: I like to think I have seven. But really none at the time being. Hopefully I can have 8-10 in the future!
L - Life is incomplete without: Family, Friends, The Gospel, Food, Clothes, and Shoes!
M - Marriage Date: ha no time soon.
N - Number of Siblings: Seven...best siblings around! 3 Brothers, 4 Sisters, 2 Brother in Laws, 2 Sister in laws, 3 Nephews, and 1 adorable Niece!
O - Oranges or Apples: I like both. Oranges give me cold sores, and if I have an apple it has to be cold and CRISP!
P - Phobias or Fears: Heights freak me out... and I've always been afraid of being kidnapped. Now that I am 20 I guess it should be called adultnapped but still scares me to death.
Q - Quotes: "The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it." Thomas S. Monson
R -Reason to smile: My family, friends, sunny days, and time at the greatest place on earth Island Park Idaho.
S - Season: I really do love all. I only enjoy a few weeks of winter though. Summer and fall are my favorites for sure.
T - Tag Three Friends: Kortney, Kylee, Anna & Olivia YOU BETTER ALL DO THIS OR ELSE ; )
U - Unknown fact about me: I usually have a messy room, but its been very clean for two months now! and I hate when people pluralize words that shouldn't be pluralized as in costo(its not costos)
V - Very favorite Store: Target, Forever 21 and Nordstrom Rack
W - Worst habit: Messy room... but like I said its not a problem anymore!
X - X-ray or Ultrasound: Don't know how to answer. Basically I hate the doctors period considering I have to get a tonsillectomy here in a few weeks. yuck.
Y - Your favorite food: I LOVE food. Mexican, Seafood, Japanese, Italian. I'll eat just about anything. Lately I really love shrimp:)
Z- Zodiac: Pisces

Happy Monday!!

stud

If you couldn't tell already I have the cutest niece and nephews around. (i steal all these pictures from my sister) But check out this handsome little stud! isn't he the cutest. yup i love him! macky moo you are the cutest sweetest thing around love you pillow!
ha and the best thing about this kid is he loves his Utah Utes. He points out a Utah Utes symbol better than I can. Plain and simple he will definitely be a ladies man!

joy

i am happy for two reasons...
the sun is out
flowers are blooming.

oh and can't forget. sparkling clean kicks.

happy thursday:)

{love}

yes yes i know... blogging twice in one day considers me a blog nerd. i am well aware. BUT i found this and couldn't stop smiling. how could someone, anyone, any stranger off the street not fall madly in LOVE with this little face??

this is "miss marley may" also known as "sissy". she's my niece and as you can tell i have more than enought pride in this girl. she is one but yet she knows just how to push everyone's buttons. we were at ikea the other day and i was put "incharge" of the adorable muchkin. well as you could guess it is not easy trying to self check out while holding a squirming toddler who just wants to be put down. so to her joy i finally gave in. (i know i'm a bad aunt)... but i never thought she'd run away. ha well to my surprise a second later i look down and this little missy is gone. i worried for a few second until my older nephew ran up trying to carry little missy, while yelling "may may you let her go and she was all the way over there" he then pointed to about the oposite end of the store. oops. yup like i said this little girl is crazy and i learned my lesson. but man do i love her to death. she is a stinker but the cutest and sweetest stinker i know.
and once again how could anyone not LOVE that face?

< 3 obsession

my new OBSESSION equals...


NICHOLAS SPARKS BOOKS.
thank heavens for a spring break from one of my jobs so i can expand my obsession even further.

{old}

These two boys are some of the cutest, sweetest, and most talented boys I know. I love you mad and mas! It makes me sick to think how old you are both getting. Madden is turning eight this summer and Mason will be ten in November. It feels like yesterday they were babies and now they are grown into boys... big boys. Madden is one of the sweetest boys around he always happy to give me hugs(not kisses... what eight year old kisses his aunt?? Sick!). He is the most athletic kid around he can kick any 12 year old in just about any sport. He is so funny and always makes me laugh. He has the most angelic singing voice around I just want to hear him sing all day. Mason is the smartest boy I know. He reminds me a lot of my brother Cody. He always fills me in on the environment and loves telling me random cool facts. He is an outstanding reader and can read any book faster than I can. He is an excellent student and passes with flying colors in every subject. He is amazing on his guitar and is getting better ever day. He will melt girls hearts in high school. Aren't they just cute?! I love you boys thanks for being the coolest and greatest nephews around!

ENOUGH

ENOUGH SNOW! there I said it. Thats all there is to it. I am sick of the snow. GO AWAY now please. thank you.



Summer I am soooo ready for you.

One year...

Its been one year since our sweet brother Cody left us. It has been an extremely hard year... too hard to put into words. Not a day went by this whole year that I didn't think of him and miss him. I keep saying to myself day after day that I just plain and simple wish he was here. Wish he was seeing us all grow up and experience new things as a family. Wish he was here to hug me. Wish he was here to make me laugh on those hard days. I think its finally hit me that he's not here and that he's not going to be here. That thought alone is SO hard. I wish I could have helped him some how, I wish I would have known how bad he was hurting and in pain. I wish I would have taken more time to share my feelings of the gospel with him. I wish I could have hugged him one last time and convinced him to change his mind. I know I will still always have those days where I'll wish he was here, but for now I am so glad he is where he is. I hope and pray everyday that he has found peace and is happy. There are so many things I wish I could change or things I wish I would have done before he left us but I can't, I can't go back and fix those things and make them better. I now more than ever want to be like my brother and to make him proud. I want to not have regrets and feel guilt. I want to live each day being happy and serving others, because thats what he would want me to do. I want to make a change in the way I live. A change for the better.
How grateful I am for family and friends that made this hard year just a little bit easier. I am thankful for all the prayers on behalf of our family, Heavenly Father is real and he does answer prayers. I know that families can be together forever, for eternity. I know we will see Cody again some day and this gives me the most comfort of all. This gives me the courage to be a little better and to try harder everyday to do my part. I hope and pray this year will be filled with more happiness and peace for my family. That we will all be able to use this hard trial we have been through to help others in need. I want to thank my parents for being the best parents any kids could ask for. They are so strong, and are such amazing examples to all of us. I love you mom and dad! I also want to thank my siblings for being the best siblings out there, and for being there for me always! I love each and every one of you! I know we will always have ups and downs but I hope this year will be filled with more ups. We love you Cody and miss you everyday! Every time I smile I am smiling for you. I want you to be happy and for all of us to be happy!
I love you CoCo!

Ellen...

I recently have been watching the Ellen DeGeneres show and I LOVE it! Thank you Ellen for providing such entertainment for me!

Happy 1st Birthday!

Happy 1st Birthday to my favorite and cutest niece ever Marley May! Mar mar your auntie may may loves you more than you know! I am proud that you have my same middle name, I like to think its our special connection! You are the cutest and sweetest little girl I know! You have been such an amazing blessing to our entire family, I do not know what we would do with out you! You have the sweetest spirit and bring so much happiness to our family! Thanks for coming to our family and letting us love you! Happy Birthday pretty girl! I love you!!

{recent happenings}

Snow Fun weekend with Carly and Judd! We love when they come to visit!
Sledding crew Cad, Car, Judd and myself!I love my sisters!

Jensen Family Christmas party... yes the party was January 28th ha perfect timing in my eyes!My Nani and Papa JensenSoph, me, Car & Judd all of the grand kids... minus a few!
Soph and Me!

St George trip for my great friend Cachet's bridal shower! She is getting married March 13th! I am so excited for her! I also got to see Car and Judd and spend lots of time with them!My hair school buddies:)haha we had a little cheer team!

and last but not least just a fun, relaxing and stress free weekend! Sar and I went to dinner, saw a movie, ran a 5k and made a trip to the temple on Sunday after going to a new singles ward! It was such a beautiful day! Life is going great and I cannot complain!
Our 5k run... it was early!Ha we asked some guy to take our picture and he was a professional photographer, we felt special!

Dear John

I don't care who you are you had to think this movie was incredible. I absolutely loved it. I of course had to read the book for the second time before I saw the movie. I loved both, I think its a record for liking a book and a movie just the same. They were different but both just so great! I was glued the whole movie and of course cried the whole time! I cannot wait to buy it! I love a great movie that makes me cry and be so happy at the same time, thank you to the people who wrote the book and made the movie. The main actor and actress played the parts perfectly. I felt like I was in the movie with them haha call me ridiculous but its true. Curry and my Mom laughed as I stormed down stairs so upset at how the book ended. They then tried to explain to me how they wanted you to portray the ending. I think I like them just telling me the ending instead of making me imagine it. So thanks to the movie I am satisfied and happy as a clam! Go see the movie, but before you do that read the book! I will be adding this movie to my collection
p.s. not to mention channing tatum is a babe:)